its okay to hate your job...

the air smelled so good today.
like nature. dirt & trees & grass & rain.
and
i think i saw a ghost.
fuck, i'm all aflutter.

listening to:
black moth super rainbow

ugh...why can't i help myself.
kant was unfair, that did me in.
plus everything else which is nothing to anyone but me.
its always so close and yet so far.

today i
saw a snake dangling from the beak of a flying bird.
i wish i new what that meant.

recently, i have dreamt the strangest things.
i don't what they mean either...
i am sure its deep.


listening to broken social scene and shadow by cloud cult.
(a little chris isaak too but i don't really
like to talk about it)

(eyes close).

not sleeping.

i feel like an island.

have i run out of things to write?
terrifying.
i have many problems that i have made
and then made impossible.
they are starting to collect in the corners
of my mind and clog shit up.

um...i need to stop thinking.

"Being a woman is so hard
that only a woman could do it."
-said by a Dutch woman who no
doubt had many confusions all her own.

friday:
kiss, kiss, kiss, by ono with peaches
heard you got action by pony up!
i know what boys like by the waitresses
wasted and ready by ben kweller

i am distracting myself.
{mostly}

saturday:
in other words by ben kweller
young liars by tv on the radio
something wicked by british sea power

hungover but gloating.

sunday:
family tree by ben kweller
take me down by smashing pumpkins
i'm not in love by 10cc

had a vivid dream about a double headed snake,
i am afraid to know what it means.
i watched ben-hur, it is brilliant.

today:
the murder mystery by the velvet underground
when u love somebody by fruit bats

thin man + denver diner
beer and then breakfast.
genius, really.

{sleeping}

me quemo.

i am going upward on a tulmultuous inner journey.
i wish i could express it in a drum solo.

snakes and martyrs by tv on the radio
chinese translation by m. ward

suddenly, my life is eventful.

i am listening to chopin for young lovers