working.
reading.
writing.

everything is abloomin.

veronica vaughn hates the rain but i like her anyway.

i have failed to do anything yet today.
i just want to listen to sad songs and write bad poetry.
i have many other things to write but i don't know how
to explain them.
oh life, i can't articulate you, even to myself.

everything looks better when its wet:
as you said by tortoise
take a look at my girlfriend by supertramp
dinner bells by wolf parade
the district sleeps alone tonight by the postal service
punks in the beerlight by silver jews
(i love you to the max.)

its okay to hate your job...

the air smelled so good today.
like nature. dirt & trees & grass & rain.
and
i think i saw a ghost.
fuck, i'm all aflutter.

listening to:
black moth super rainbow

ugh...why can't i help myself.
kant was unfair, that did me in.
plus everything else which is nothing to anyone but me.
its always so close and yet so far.

today i
saw a snake dangling from the beak of a flying bird.
i wish i new what that meant.

recently, i have dreamt the strangest things.
i don't what they mean either...
i am sure its deep.


listening to broken social scene and shadow by cloud cult.
(a little chris isaak too but i don't really
like to talk about it)

(eyes close).

not sleeping.

i feel like an island.

have i run out of things to write?
terrifying.
i have many problems that i have made
and then made impossible.
they are starting to collect in the corners
of my mind and clog shit up.

um...i need to stop thinking.

"Being a woman is so hard
that only a woman could do it."
-said by a Dutch woman who no
doubt had many confusions all her own.

friday:
kiss, kiss, kiss, by ono with peaches
heard you got action by pony up!
i know what boys like by the waitresses
wasted and ready by ben kweller

i am distracting myself.
{mostly}

saturday:
in other words by ben kweller
young liars by tv on the radio
something wicked by british sea power

hungover but gloating.

sunday:
family tree by ben kweller
take me down by smashing pumpkins
i'm not in love by 10cc

had a vivid dream about a double headed snake,
i am afraid to know what it means.
i watched ben-hur, it is brilliant.

today:
the murder mystery by the velvet underground
when u love somebody by fruit bats

thin man + denver diner
beer and then breakfast.
genius, really.

{sleeping}

me quemo.

i am going upward on a tulmultuous inner journey.
i wish i could express it in a drum solo.

snakes and martyrs by tv on the radio
chinese translation by m. ward

suddenly, my life is eventful.

i am listening to chopin for young lovers