library series #2

Put me in your blue skies
Or put me in your grey
There's gotta be some way
There's gotta be some way

Put me in your tongue tie
Make it hard to say
That you ain't gonna stay
That you ain't gonna stay

Wrap me in your marrow
Stuff me in your bones
Sing a mending moan
A song to bring you home
-Devendra Banhart

fuck.fuck.fuck.
i so tired of omens.

music for long and vague equations:
1. Make it Rain by Tom Waits
2. Blue Light by Mazzy Star
3. Lullaby by The Cure
4. That's the Way Love Goes by Janet Jackson

vague discordant memories
beat against my chest
like two fluttering
robins.

i'm lost. again. f.
muh muh muh.
it may be time for me
to give myself a
lobotomy.
for serious,
this shit is wack.

see Toute le Monde by Carla Bruni
& Redford by Sufjan Stevens

i wish i would accomplish something...

see Romeo and Juliet by Dire Straits
& Shelter by Ray Lamontagne

"where is the fancy bread? in the heart or in the head?"-Rhode Dahl

mmm...snow...

see King of the Mountain by Kate Bush
& Slave by David Garza

being home is like being in a familar alternate universe.
i'm myself, just a different form of myself...

see books written for girls by camera obscura

i can't help myself...

it is now time to think ahead
and hopefully that involves
getting some booty (hahaha)

well everyone is green...

see Sister by Sufjan Stevens
(happy with sad tones just
the way it should be...)

i have no words to articulate the happiness
i feel towards the computer dr...
i have learned many valuable lessons from
this endevour, none of which i will expose
here because i should have known all of it
before...

music to celebrate that you have your music
back:

1. Dakota by Stereophonics
2. Mouth Wooed Her by Animal Collective
3. Wisper to a Scream by Icicle Works

maybe i can inhale now...

[s the d]
is it possible for everyone
to have the same bad day?
i think march is the bad seed &
depression is the new happiness.
i suppose there were some highlights
though...
i can always enjoy the irrational
anger of others...
but where is the moon?
full than gone completly absent
like [fill in personal simile]
boo.

see Homesick by The Vines
&
Trouble Sleeping by Corrine Bailey Rae
&
I Never by Rilo Kiley

okay, can i have my epiphany now?

we have all gone mad
(or least more mad than before)
perhaps everything will work out...
at least there is always soul music.

life is a technical diffculty today

"Whatever, it's probably one of those free
mugs you get at the bank...or the abortion clinic."

see In My Mind by Heather Headly
&
Don't Leave Me This Way... by Thelma Houston

too much booty in the pants, dance.

see clap yo hands by naughty by nature

the back
of your neck
makes me tingle
& i die
to get underneath
your clothes

open-mouth kisses
fumbling madly
at eachothers skin
my limbs are screaming
when i see you across the room
as you look down
and pull at your hair

for a moment
i am driven
from sanity

i am feigning apathy...
alas, its not working.

poke poke poke
no more eye!

[expletives]

see never fall in love again by snow patrol

f.

ugh...
i really need to learn to edit
myself...

40's and sledding should often
be combined.

i am sick
with morning
discontented
gray skies
work into my eyes
so sweet and sad
the way clouds
smooth across the sky
i try and remember
am i still sleeping?
impossible
to tell
and
frivolous
anyway

if this doesn't happen soon i may
combust...spontaneously
i have the lust that kills...

the video for the animals' "house of
the rising sun" is the only thing keeping
me from attack

so again with the graffiti in the bathroom...
what the f-shit?

people really hate my shoes.
i didnt know it was possible that
snow boots could so infuriate people.
do my soles reflect my soul?
its like a uniform where everyone thinks
you're a bitch...
who new that owning ugly shoes would be
a social experiment?

i miss loading pictures...

strange signs in the women's bathroom...
again...
i am probably just losing my mind
but i am having fun.

taking a zepplin break.
see european son by the velvet underground

[three unrelated verses]

I.
you stand so close
you are so close
so close
tormenting
with you presence
II.
slow motion
moving picture
reeling
through images
that stop
my heart
III.
the bad ball
forms
just above
the spine

fuck fuck
push push
[just leave me]
[please]
eyes the edge
of the socket
brown
clouds in my peripheral vision
and i roll back
swiftly
to the floor
unable to speak
unable to move
degraded
with the scent
of daytime air
i will end here
[please]

i just can't think about it...
anything...

i've been listening to the same Led Zepplin song
over
and
over
for the last five days...

my mind is a crazy place to be right now

oh the familial mindfuck...

computer i miss you so...

yeah so i fucked up so bad. shit.
i must keep telling myself that the
material is immaterial.
but fuck, anyway really.

yea sunshine though!

"Jackie O never wore a lip ring!"
-my mother to my sister in an urging tone

Album to listen and hopefully forget the badness:
Halfway Between the Gutter and the Stars by Fatboy Slim

fuck this i'm joining the dandies...

see Givin' Him Something and Don't Let Go by En Vogue

ps Janis Joplin is the boo yea to my soul.

"It's terrifying..."
"So is creation."
-Suddenly Last Summer

see atmosphere by joy division

from now on i'm staying inside and pretending this is
what the weather is like...ah, much better...

top three film stars i would turn lezzie for:
1. Sophia Loren
2. Elizabeth Taylor
3. Scarlett Johansson

"You are a bad person...You are going to end up in hell."
-guy yelling

see Your Eyes Vs. the Sun by Songs Ohia

my life has turned into an episode of the office...

bang bang...

"He's a weird little bloke! Look at his cartoon face and his hair, he looks like a Fisher Price man, and his rubbish clothes... it makes me think there's something wrong with you for a start but yet in my head I'd still do you so I'm confused."
-the office

it is nights like tonite that i am reminded why i am anti-social...